Tuesday, 29 April 2008

What a wonderful week of two days!!

Joy, joy, joy – happiness and love. My man surprised me with a bunch of flowers yesterday, what a marvellous pleasant surprise.

My desk is happily covered with books, my timetable is has been optimistically stuck on the wall. It is early days but I am confident and looking forward to living a different type of life for a while!
Yesterday we hit the Waterfront; we started at the Paulaner Brahaus for a delightfully huge jug of lager and a plate of Sausages and delicious dark sweet mustard, and then headed for a more refined dinner. After hearing such praises of the sushi at Willoughby’s, I insisted we give it a try. In a nutshell, it had no atmosphere; we could have been sitting in Sandton Mall. It seems presentation is by no means necessary in the face of such a good reputation, the sushi was fine, but by no means ‘The best in Cape Town’ Overpriced, small sad sushi rolls, served on a boring white ceramic plate. It was like eating sushi at one of those ‘Steak, Seafood and Pizza places” Verrrry disappointing.

Had a lovely, marvellous Monday!

I really want to stop watching Sky news – it’s all getting a wee bit too disturbing…
What a horrific story, I feel as though I am still reeling from a hectic horror novel. Oh my…how sick are some people. I don’t even want to analyse this, I don’t want to know too much, I don’t want to go to Austria. There must something evil lurking in the birthplace of Hitler!

Understanding does not cure evil, but it is a definite help, inasmuch as one can cope with a comprehensible darkness.
Carl Jung

This is just too freakily apt:
An evil person is like a dirty window, they never let the light shine through.
William Makepeace Thackeray

and on a lighter side:

Two things are infinite: the universe and human stupidity; and I'm not sure about the universe.
Albert Einstein

Friday, 25 April 2008

Misty Friday

The Mother City is covered in mist. I love days like today. Possibilities seem endless. Not forgetting the long weekend ahead, the beginning of midnight coffees, stationery, and endless note taking as I finally get stuck into my books!
Exams are looming, work has suddenly become a fertile ground for possible success and I am ready, ready to take it all on, ready to achieve all I possibly can…
I love days like today!

Thursday, 24 April 2008

Fine tuning

I think there is a problem when you ignore the big E word for most of your adult life, then all of a sudden you find a way to embrace exercise. Suddenly I find it unthinkable that you can actually overdo it – such is the life of an extremist – I never know when enough is enough! Today I feel stretched and pulled and twisted and exhausted and yet today I am going back for more! It beats sitting in the traffic for an hour and my stomach is just not quite were I would like it to be. I am sure I am also defeating all the goodness of my yoga by eating utter crap the whole live long day – but my hunger is suddenly relentless! Actually hunger, thirst, desire…everything seems to be crying out for immediate satisfaction!
All attempts at organisation have gone out the window and now all I can focus on is the shower after yoga, maybe a glass of wine and Desperate Housewives!
Tomorrow is Friday!!

Wednesday, 23 April 2008

So long Mister

My boss resigned today. It was quite a blow. It’s amazing how quickly you manage to develop a relationship with someone. You learn a dance, a way to manoeuvre around each other’s characteristics. You learn to adapt to their moods. A good manager is one you don’t want to disappoint. He was good. I am aware of the possibilities that may now exist for me, however I am also acutely aware of the likelihood of these possibilities not materialising and that will be awful.
Change is good. Embracing change is even better, but it’s never that simple. I am not happy with the current status quo of my existing position. I feel redundant in my career. To carry on, only with a newer big cheese…is not I am afraid an option!
I suppose all there is to do is wait and see…

Franschhoek was spectacular! The first restaurant was all about art on a plate! The most beautiful plates of food I have ever seen, Le Bon Vivant. We drank a bottle of Graham Beck Brut and had a gorgeous plate of different types of chocolate for dessert.
The next day after breakfast, we walked up and down the streets. The shops are just beautiful and unique and elegant. I spent too much money on buying gorgeous little chocolate truffles. We had more sparking for lunch and then went to Graham Beck for a tasting. The tasting room was slick, glass, metal, mirrors and chandeliers. The wine was sadly somewhat flat!

Sundowners at Dieu Donne Vineyards. Breathtaking to say the least. The Interior was something quite spectacular with larger than life windows displaying one of the most beautiful sunset’s I have ever been blessed with witnessing!

The evening ended at Bouillabaisse. I am just too poor with words to describe the evening. The food, the d├ęcor, the service, the champagne and oysters, the music. The Bouillabaisse itself was exceptional!

It was a fantastic, hedonistic and memorable day in Franschhoek and I can’t wait to go back!!!

Wednesday, 16 April 2008

The State of nothing

I have been struggling to write lately. I think it is partly because I am so exhausted after almost two weeks of visitors and restaurants and too much wine and partly because every time I write I remember the reason for wanting to keep this blog. In all honesty I was supposed to have a ring on my finger and planning my wedding right now. That was the plan that was the reason I came to Cape Town. So far it hasn’t happened. There have been fights and arguments then a period of acceptance and then times of something close to contentment. On one hand I feel angry about waiting for something that is not really in my control and yet on the other hand we have spent a year killing and loving other, all in the name of getting used to being in each other’s space. I am still waiting, but lately I have become more confident. This time has afforded us to make some very exciting decisions in regards to the rest of our lives. It has also given me some time to really grow up and try to think clearly.

I always have a great sadness when I think of my family, not being there for them. Living a life they didn’t want for me and I always wonder what would have happened if I didn’t come with him to Cape Town. Maybe I wouldn’t appreciate my family the way I do now?

I am tired, I am lost at work and I have a million and one things going through my head.
The best stuff:
Eating dinner with my family at the French Connection in Franschhoek – The duck was stupendous!
Sushi at the CTFM in Stellenbosch (Fishmonger -you silly bastards, you really lost a good customer – imagine only have a sushi chef on certain days of the week and then to make matters worse, the one dish I was prepared to have instead of sushi wasn’t available...do you know what, if you have a menu and you cannot provide more than 50% of the items on the menu – tell your customers as they sit down, on the phone – or fucking close your doors)
Four sleeps to our very romantic night in Franschhoek! Reservations have been made and I feel a little yelp of excitement coming when I think of the food, the wine, the oysters and the CHAMPAGNE!!
Our first night we are going to: Le Bon Vivant and the second night: Bouillabaisse which I have heard is AMAZING. I cant wait!
The upcoming public holidays!
The bad stuff:
Going outside and stand on the kerb in order to have a cigarette. The street bums annoy me tremendously and there is nothing sadder than watching a grown man collecting stompies from the street.
Women who brush their hair in elevators; it really makes me feel ill!
So many pregnant women who barely look sixteen – where are all these babies being kept? There is a girl at work who hasn’t stopped smoking 7 months into her pregnancy. What the fuck…
I haven’t started studying; I am officially in shit for the exams next bloody month!

Wednesday, 09 April 2008

A new person

Finally I slept. Deeply, dreamless and deliciously cottoned in my crisp white sheets. I have been deprived for so long! Unfortunately I overslept so the feeling of contentment didn't last much after my first glace at the illuminous green time. The drive to work work was a bit of a blur, I know I was in a heightened state of concentration, speed, dodging, swerving, lighting cigarettes and applying mascara...Shocking I know!

Anyway my mood returned after making it to work in record breaking time, unfortunately this was shattered by the most nauseating, irritating, useless time wasting meeting that some morons insist on having on a daily basis! Meetings - what the hell is the point, send a damn email!

The sun is shining and Cape Town is beautiful and crisp this morning!

Something good needs to happen, I need a change!

Consistency is the last refuge of the unimaginative.
Oscar Wilde

Tuesday, 08 April 2008

A tiny, little adventure into Paarl

Finally we had our day off yesterday. After much deliberation we decided to go to Paarl and drink wine. Not a terribly unusual thing for us to do, I was in favour of heading to the beach. The sun was shining and warm days are dwindling – but we decided to head to the very reputable Nederburg.

It wasn’t long ago that it was the norm to scoff at a bottle of Nederburg and yet somehow they have managed to establish themselves as a well respected and classy brand. Their newest range Ingenuity is indeed innovative and is exploding with complexity. Eight different white varietals in one bottle. Yummy!

I was however very disappointed in the overall set up. The tasting room was modern and classy – there was just no real wow factor and the Manor house which is I have watched on TV ads ever since I can remember was really just a Manor House. I looked for the impressiveness and just didn't see it. Maybe I have become jaded...
The tasting was really generous, normally you receive a thimbleful of wine, but at Nederburg we received a good few gulps in each glass. Needless to say we were quite joyful in our departure, and very vocal about declaring our undying love for the estate. We ate a rather disappointing lunch in Franschhoek, somehow managed to drive home and didn’t move from the couch for the rest of the evening! It was fun, but I think we are getting too old for this sort of thing. Drinking wine first thing in the morning has side effects that seem to last for days!

This morning was too depressing for words: dark and cold. I am not ready for winter, it needs to stay away for a while. I need to equip myself. I only have one pair of boots, all my socks have holes and my winter wardrobe is in suitcases. Please stay away a while longer, I want to wear my long, outrageous, stripy, summer dress just one more time!!

So it is back to work today, to start some more lists and sharpen my pencils. To find a spot of sun outside and have a cigarette, to attempt to drink my eight glasses of water and stare at Excel for the rest of the day! Pivot tables and calendar reminders. Vending machines and stale sandwiches!

Tuesday, 01 April 2008

Kauai Bablas Power Smoothie - you saved the day!

Wow - hangovers. Such a loss of focus. I am struggling to put one foot in front of the other. A lunch of watermelon and barbequed chicken wings are sitting very uneasily in my stomach. It was a great night of R500 sushi and cheep red wine. We laughed and kissed and enjoyed each others company. I really do love him! It has been such a long time.