Thursday, 27 March 2008

Well been damn useless again today. Had an awful night’s sleep, tossing and turning, hot and cold. Today I sat weeping for a while in front on my computer screen. Feeling awfully sorry for myself and really quite pathetic! I am sure tomorrow will be better.

The eternal optimist in the face of all adversity.

She will go through the motions in her yoga class today and when the high has died down, she will find herself on the long dark highway on the way home. The house will be dark as she walks in, smelling of old cigarette smoke and a couple of dirty mugs will be lying in the sink. Then the routine of showering and sitting on her old couch having cigarette after cigarette. She will contemplate reaching out to someone, she will even contemplate phoning her man with the stupid hope that he will finish work early. Eventually the sound of ice and whiskey. Late at night hopefully she will be in her desired comatose sleep.

The eternal optimist in the face of all adversity.

"Macbeth does murder sleep, the innocent sleep,Sleep that knits up the ravelled sleeve of care,The death of each day's life, sore labor's bath,Balm of hurt minds, great nature's second course,Chief nourisher in life's feast" (2.2.35-39).

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